Several weeks ago now, I sat in church and almost threw up when I notice the day’s scripture reading: Genesis 28. This Old Testament chapter is a loaded one for me. One that carries my college nickname, India-girl, on its back. You see, I first discovered this chapter in India. I was sitting in a […]
What do you want from me?
“What do you want from me?” The question eeeks out of my brain quicker than I can stop it with better judgement. It’s not a harsh, angry tone—just a sense of exasperation as I sigh and mark an email unread, because I don’t know what to do with it today. I got a card this […]
An Identity Crisis
“I don’t know how to love Jesus without this church.” —her voice came static-y through the marco polo message. And I sat up straighter; tears came to my eyes; she called it more feeling than truth but I felt the truth in it, the truth of it. Because I’ve known it too. I’ve just said […]
Lie Versus Truth: Anxiety
Last week, I wrestled with anxiety. All week long. Day after day it was haunting me, trying to squash hopes and dreams, keeping me distracted and dismayed. Until a friend heard this phrase on repeat, “I am a crazy person!”And she asked me, with a knowing, slightly sly smile, “What does God want you to […]
His faithfulness is all we need.
After a heavy-handed fight with a deep dose of guilt— and the gift of a timely, encouraging word from a friend about God being faithful to the promise He gives, even if it looks different than what we expect, my reply landed at this: “His faithfulness is all we need.” Everyone else will—at some point […]
on writing in the waiting.
I really want to write, I whisper, as my face falls into my hands to cover the shame and overwhelming emotions that tighten around my thoughts, twisting into a headache worse than yesterday’s. I mean, this is who I am. Or, rather, a part of who I am. Shouldn’t I be walking in it, bearing […]