A dream is a wish your heart makes… I’d like to amend that lyric this morning, to instead say: A dream is a prayer you’re too afraid to pray. You know what I’m talking about. You think “the desires of your heart” are only worth fulfillment if they’re “His desires” too. You think that your […]
a steadfast spirit.
This is a bit of a strange first post of the new year, but it is a glimpse into the fact that this year, at its core, is really the same kind of year as last year and next year, too–it’s simply another framework of time and minutes, season and moments, gathered together by the […]
Advent Songs, Christmas Eve: glory
The new year races towards me, but today, it’s only Christmas Eve. Still, as I read Luke 2 this morning, my thoughts went to the words I’ve been pursuing in these last days of 2016—“the right time”—as I read their counterparts only a few verses into the famous, beautifully captured words of the Christmas story. […]
Advent Songs, part 4: peace
This hasn’t exactly been a year of peace for me. Or, as the Hebrew word shalom describes it, it hasn’t been a year of flourishing or wholeness. It’s been the opposite, actually. A year of a lot of brokenness, stripping, disappointment. A year full of fear, anxiety, depression, a floundering of questions: why am I […]
Advent Songs, part 3: father
It’s a quiet morning here. And by quiet, I mean my heart is quietly waking, coffee in hand, cardigan on, and blankets piled over my feet. All while some sort of loud celebratory music plays outside my window. Outside, it’s Busy. Inside, it’s Advent. So I break up my normal routine & grab my computer […]
on writing in the waiting.
I really want to write, I whisper, as my face falls into my hands to cover the shame and overwhelming emotions that tighten around my thoughts, twisting into a headache worse than yesterday’s. I mean, this is who I am. Or, rather, a part of who I am. Shouldn’t I be walking in it, bearing […]